Busy Bees make the Sweetest Honey

I have been painfully busy. Tonight, Skybox is in Dallas; this is the most amazing thing ever. I will be there at any cost. Tomorrow, I do not leave my apartment. Aside from maybe checking the mail. I'll still be painfully busy after tomorrow is over. Eventually this will find an end, and I will be busy with nothing but the things that matter. I feel a little off track with that silly job, but its purpose is to allow me a memorable final day to savor. The last day I ever sell my time to an unworthy and unnecessary cause.

In other news, Tweedle Dee and Dweedle Dumb have been hard at work on fleshing out The Domestics and Project Snow Globe. The next post should be a presentation of our work. You'll get a much better bite of it than the crumbs I've been trailing along.

And in other other news, a story!

Sometime last week, I believe it was, these weeks and days blur together, I was out looking for clovers as I am apt to do. About a week prior I'd told myself that, if I ever found two four leaf clovers right next to each other, then something truly amazing would happen. Well I was half daydreaming when I spotted a lovely four leaf clover. With a smile on my face I went to look at it closer and, what should I happen to notice directly next to it? Why, a second four leaf clover! I was stunned. I had not expected that to happen this soon, I mean, such a thing is rare even for me. So I kind of laid back on the grass for a bit in shock. A few minutes later I slowly arose, not wanting to pick them just yet, out of some kind of respect for the enormity of it, I searched around some more, just to bide time, I suppose. Then, as if the universe had some kind of sly sense of humor, before my eyes appeared another- with a second right next to it. So, getting the message, I plucked all four up and walked back to my apartment to preserve them.

I will update you all soon with our goodies. And in the meantime, check out my partner in crime's blog: http://notaboxboy.blogspot.com it's a complement to mine, as we are two of the same entity.

My life is playing out exactly as I dreamed it would. And yes, the job and over-stress is my fault. I never said my mind was perfect.

Post Script:

Prepare yourselves for an onslaught of awesome.

I Can Be at Peace

The past few days have been interesting. I intentionally made myself unwell, nestling down in a beautiful apathy. Thursday I spent all day in the sun, yet as the afternoon grew late my tolerance turned into a strange depression. When everything in your world is beautiful, and all is going your way, you shouldn't feel like this. I decided something was wrong with my brain. It was an enjoyable unravelling, and the next day felt even better. Refusing to care about anything is where I obtained the first clue in my quest to fix my mind. When I'm not struggling to enjoy things, they seem so much more enjoyable.

However, by the end of that day, where I was innocently attempting to enjoy my all consuming apathy for a second night, I walked right into quicksand. Forced to endure 12 or more very slow hours of wondering whether my worst fear in the world had come to pass. Countless times I tried to relieve my mind. "Everything's perfectly okay." My mind bought it, but my subconscious refused. 8:30 PM to 8:30 AM, sleep would not have me. The grain of good that came from this was the discovery of an unhelpful core belief. The belief that I could not be at peace 24/7. I dismantled that notion and now I'm in the midst of implanting a new one.

And a good friend helped me in a time of need. Thanks Jayme. :)

All is good.

Now to recover lost sleep.

Five Leaf Clover. Hurrah.

When will the world understand that it really is about mind over matter?

I find four leaf clovers because I expect to, not because there's radioactive waste in the water. That only explains the two headed geese. Four leaf clovers are actually a natural phenomenon. Albeit a less common one.

And like I said, I find them because I expect to, you don't because you tell yourself they're exceedingly rare. If this isn't enough to turn a few heads and get some mental gears turning, then I'll just have to work harder.

This blog is just a precursor to something much better. Things have been set in motion. I'm still working on myself mentally, unravelling things, finding kinks and kindly destroying them.

Whatever you want, whenever you want it. It's all up to you, nothing external. Nothing. Ever. Never. Ever. My word sweater is coming undone. I'll soon be naked.